Beautiful home? Not so!

It's been a while since I blogged and for obvious reasons (my in-laws are here), I am unable to blog. However, I have been typing serially and save them until I find time to finish blogging a post before posting them.

I've always dreamt of having a beautiful home since young. Well, who doesn't, I'm sure many people do. Personally, the interior matters more, so I don't need a big house, big yard nor a big garden. I like things to be orderly and beautiful placed and of course, clean! Unfortunately, homes like these comes with high price. Interior decors are costly and every little stylish/classy ornaments are expensive. If you know what I'm talking about, organised home needs a little more stuff than normal. With that I mean, nice boxes, drawers, baskets, cabinets, wardrobe and etc. Decorations are important too such as plants (artificial or non-artifical), lamps, picture frame, carpets, cushions and all the other impractical but pretty knick-knacks.

My dream home is to have a set of everything, a theme design and colour which is white and if I had to choose wood, it would be dark (chalet style) wood and not the lighter brown wood. Unfortunately, my husband prefers the latter and hence, you can imagine the conflict we are deemed to have.

Since we don't have a house of our own now, it really doesn't matter as much whether or not I have a beautiful home, as long as I have a clean and comfortable home. We perpetually choose not to have nice furniture as it may not fit our own house one day. We live in a very small flat and although so, I still try my best to make it look beautiful.

Council clean-up day happens twice a year. It was coming up, so I searched high and low for things we do not need, and placed them by the roadside to be picked up by the council. Sometimes, passers-by will pick up things which may be useful for them, like the saying goes, one man's waste is another's treasure. In a sense, we consider this as blessing others.

I did mention before and I believe I have changed my habit to only keep things I need. I have learnt not to hoard things. I tried so hard to de-clutter but I guess, things aren't as easy as I thought. Let me share with you. My in-laws are very shrewd and thrifty people. Perhaps, that is the reason why they are rich for they are good steward of God's money. However, I don't know if this is a good example to follow, being someone who loves to hoard things even when we don't really need it. Perhaps coming from their background and perspective, they do not view things like we do now. They think that we may need it someday, and when we do, isn't it good to have one ever ready for us to use without spending unnecessarily.

For us, particularly myself (since I'm the home minister and hubby is the food minister) I decide what sort of furniture we need and what we don't. Since council clean-up day is around the corner, the whole neighbourhood starts clearing stuffs and you can see there are at least something gathered at the front of every house. Hence, it is a great opportunity for my in-laws to pick up stuffs which 'they' think are useful. Inevitably, they managed to pick up several things, notably an old computer desk (wood in colour) now being used in the laundry area, a 3-drawer bedside table (also wood in colour) now being used to place our broiler at the kitchen and a fruit basket.

Here I was, trying so hard to clear unnecessary things at home, and instead I got a few additional unwanted stuffs at home. It was quite a blow to my effort of keeping the house beautiful and clean. I just totally didn't have the mood to clean up the house anymore because things just looked ugly the very instance I saw the picked-up furnitures.

Well, what can I say? Those furnitures aren't light, and we learnt that my father in-law actually carried them all the way home. It was cruel, unsympathetic and ungrateful to reject the good intention and well-meaning from my in-laws. I just had to take it with a pinch of salt and worry about the furnitures later.

Thank God it's only our rented home, should this be our own and beautiful home, I have no idea how to react to this situation. My dreams of a beautiful home might as well be squashed and trampled on the ground till it no longer exist.

Just so you know, what sort of furnitures I'm talking about..

The computer desk.

The supposedly bedside table.

This was collected by my in-laws last 2 year and no, we haven't done anything with it.

Perhaps, I am just being repugnant, but seriously it just isn't my liking at all. Oh, Lord, help me!